My paintings and drawings of women, even young women posed erotically are meant to be studies of the female sexuality as it begins in early childhood due to our society, and our emotional and biological growth into our sexuality as we reach full adulthood. In other words, I find the gap between the day when we are pinned as sexual beings, and the day where we ourselves become sexual beings most interesting.
My work is autobiographical. I have struggled deeply with my ability to be sexual, to be intimate even with the people I trust the most in this world. My ability to express my sexual feelings is very minimal… and I am finally learning that there is nothing the fuck wrong with that! I’ve spent years, yes years, thinking that I had to “catch up” to where my peers were at, even where my boyfriend is at sexually. But the truth is, that everybody’s comfortableness with their sexuality can come whenever they goddamn please.
Right now, I am on a journey to opening myself up to the possibilities of sexual expression and the happiness that it can bring into my life… But I will never allow anyone to make me feel rushed on this journey.
the bottom line, that I want people to understand about my artwork is this: I am not objectifying the women in my artwork. I am expressing the objectification i FEEL when I am physical with another person— and I am expressing the transition from feeling shameful of being sexual, to being excited to express my sexuality. This is my autobiography, my discovery of myself as a women.